I think this picture is amazing (it's not of me, found it on myspace). No, i'm not quite there yet - but it is public - somewhere between 4&5 months...so half way.
This is pregnancy number 4! Two little ones in heaven, and of course, the ever, energetic, now 2yrs, Selah. I'm feeling alot more mvmt now...we kinda kept it under wraps, as there were a few complications early on...but we are in the clear now, and midwife appts. have begun...once you go with a midwife, you'll never go back to an Obgyn. (unless there are complications of course)...i love that my midwife appts. last an hour each, and we talk about birth, and blah blah blah...all my experiences with OB's have been quick and impersonal....we're talking about birth!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! people see doctors when they are sick...pregnancy is not a sickness!
I'm glad to be over the am sickness - but at the same time, i was so grateful for that morning, afternoon, and evening sickness...with a tubal pregnancy 3yrs ago, and the miscarriage at 3 months this past August, i was rarely sick.
But again my path seems to be 'out of death comes life'....i got pregnant 3 months later with Selah after the first loss...and this time 2 weeks after miscarrying - i got pregnant. That pregnancy hormone is a God send - Thank God!
Baby losses are SO HARD....This past fall, i've watched 2 very dear friends loose their babies, one at 4 months, and one at full term....why do these things happen?
I guess we ask the same question about every injustice....and in the end my Creator is Good, Just, and i believe weeps over what we weep.
OH I miss midwife appointments! They were so wonderful! I'm glad you're soaking it all in!
ReplyDeleteHave you read The Red Tent by Anita Diamant? If you haven't it's a great read (so far... I'm only half way through) It's all about birth stories, midwifery, life and loss... about "the wives and daughter of Jacob" Biblical, Fictional. Quote ..."is what the Bible would be like it were written by women"...
It's my (poor) substitute for midwife appointments, hee hee!
How are your midwives this time round?
Anyway, many blessings on all four of you!
hi patty-jean,
ReplyDeletei'm encouraged from reading your blog! A couple very close to me just experienced a miscarriage and it has been hard on both of them. how encouraging to read about God's faithfulness, and how you've made it through the tough times...
lots of love,
becky
congrats! How awesome you're having another child. Bless your body and health in the next year.
ReplyDeleteI apologize, I accidental deleted Jen Anderson's(Bergen)comment - which i thought deserved a response -sorry Jen, i'm still learning this blog thing. so Jen had mentioned that she is in school studying to be an OBGYN - which is awesome Jen! she mentioned that she was a little offended with my genralization about OBGYN's - i do know people who've had good experiences - unfortunately with 3 of 4 preg. i have had neg. with OBGYN's and i think -as we are all entitled to our opinions, that it is healthy that there be more of a variety and balance in our health care system, with a variety of choices. Obviously in blogging we are bound to offend some people. Blessings!
ReplyDeleteAs you can tell by my comments tonight, I'm all over your blog, reading WAY past entries. I don't even know how I got this deep into your blog, but its what I needed to hear tonight. Thank you. I know you are super busy with your little ones and one very soon on its way, but I had a few questions about letting God decide our family growth, and I have NO ONE in my life who lives by this, so have no one to ask. I'm feeling like I'm floundering a bit. IF and only IF you have time, my email is selahmama4@yahoo.com and I'd love it if I could pick your brain just a tad, in a bit more private way than a blog comment. I hope you don't mind me asking. And if you don't feel comfortable with that, than just don't email. I'll leave that up to you. :)
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